Alahai Sayang .....

I finally got the opportunity to check on my personal email and found quite a number of outdated messages. There was one from hubby with no title, just a smiley face. Now, one thing I have to say about my man is that he is indeed a man of logic and reason. Everything that he does must have a cause. Nothing is done on "ala, saja aje" basis. For goodness sake, this man would not even send me flowers in the name of romance because his excuse is that," Ala, bukannya boleh makan pun bunga tuh..".

*Sigh. Spoken like a TRUE romantic.

There was no message in the email he sent. Just an attachment. A mp3 file - a song by Ronan Keating. Now, I may be a fan of all three CSIs, Bones, Numbers and whatnot's, but man, I am not THAT bright!! I am an enthusiast but that does not make me necessarily a genius!! There are certain things that I could not decipher and this mysterious email is one of it.

Just now I asked him about the email. He gave me a blank look that says " NOW only you check your mail???". I gave him one of my best pathetic looks and he just shook his head. When I pressed him further, all he said was, " Listen to the lyrics". Then he walked off. Huh, drama king.

So, here I am, searching through Google for the lyrics of the song and this is what I found :

"If Tomorrow Never Comes "

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

Chorus

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
That I try in every way
To show her every day
That she's my only one
If my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance
To tell her how I feel

Chorus

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes




Alahaiiiii, 'romantic' jugak laki aku ni ye.... ;)

HELP ME!!!!

I am an insomniac.

I am someone who cannot sleep at night.

According to Wikipedia, " Insomnia is a sleep disorder characterized by an inability to sleep and/or inability to remain asleep for a reasonable period. Insomniacs typically complain of being unable to close their eyes or "rest their mind" for more than a few minutes at a time. Both organic and nonorganic insomnia constitute a sleep disorder.[1][2] It can be caused by fear, stress, anxiety, medications, herbs, caffeine, depression, or bipolar disorder and sometimes occurs for no apparent reason. "

Shakespeare described this phenemenon delicately in 'The Two Gentlemans of Venora' , Act 1, Scene 1 as "twenty watchful, weary, tedious nights".

The French calls it insomniaque.

The Italians, insonne. ( sounds insane to me...)

The Greeks - (αυτός)που υποφέρει από αϋπνία (!@#$%^&*??!!)


Moi? I find it to be a bloody NUISANCE.

This is not the first time I am experiencing this phenemenon. Apparently eversince I started studying again, I find myself with less quality sleep and more restless nights. One would have thought that when a person is running up dan down on a daily basis like a headless chicken, trying to get to get as many things done as possible, e.g. work, study, cook, wash, become the dutiful wife, daughter; the 'hapPening' friend - you would have thought that by the end of your loooonngg exhausting day, after a full day of vigorous activities which includes amongst others 'merempit' across roads to work, lunch, school and home and frying ones' brains out in your conquest to achieve absolute control in your work and to maintain some sanity while trying to make it through your legal classes - that you would be able to get a decent good sleep after a full day of buzzing about like an insanely busy bee.

How wrong can a person be?

I am here, on a morning which I initially plan to sleep in, now in front of my computer, vigorously typing away trying to get all this junk out of my head despite sleeping only at 5:00 am, and waking up just 3 hours ago.

I have tried numerous remedies for my ailment, hot cocoa, exercise, meditation.... I am short of taking sleeping pills and shooting myself in the head.

Please, can anyone help me?

My Lady 'D'

Dianne finally joined our "young wives" club on 07.07.07, five years after I tied the knot myself on 02.02.02. She looked beautiful with her delicately sewn nikah dress and the beautiful flowers in her hair. But what fascinated me most was the fact that she was almost too 'quiet' that night, which believe me, is not a word that you would associate with our little Lady 'D' here :). Dianne is most definitely neither a demure nor a shy person. On the contrary, she sometimes reminded me of "bertih jagung" (popcorn). She loves to chat and would constantly have something to talk about everything from family, friends up to the latest gossip. However, the best thing I love about Dianne is her naivety. Despite her 6 years of living and her 'happening' lifestyle in London, deep down inside she is still the same innocent and sometimes "lurus bendul" (naive) person that I have known since I was 16 years old.

Dianne, to me, in other words, is just like a breath of fresh air in the midst of this modern and chaotic world.

That night my Dianne was as quiet as a mouse. Occasionally I see her looking down at her 'inai' tipped fingers and taking long deep breaths. I know what was going on through her mind at that time. I myself have been in the same shoes just five years ago. The feeling itself is quite indescribable. Not exactly as stressful as getting ready for a driving test. Nor is it as exciting as waiting at the cinema for the new movie that you have been anticipating to start. The term " butterfly in your stomach" does not seem to describe the feelings that you have at that accurately. Instead of the light flutter of the wings of the butterfly fanning the inside lining of your stomach, what you have instead is the heavy tramping of the Godzilla creating chaos with your internal digestive system.

After some final touches to her makeup and putting on her jewellery, Dianne is finally ready for her nikah ceremony. Gina and myself went downstairs to wait with her relatives for the groom to arrive. Before leaving I looked back at Dianne and saw her again looking down at her fingers, perhaps thinking of her future - which will change in less then 20 minutes time. I prayed for her silently - so that god will give her the strength and the wisdom to undertake this new role in her life; to be the beautiful, smart and wonderful wife that any husband would be proud of.

" My dearest Dianne,

Congratulations on your wedding, my friend. May you and your husband receive the blessings from Allah SWT and live a prosperous and wonderful life for many years to come.

Amin. "

*p/s : More pictures at My Fotopages

Monday Blues

You know that you are going to have a bad day WHEN :

1. You accidentally burnt your favourite 'executive' top while ironing clothes to go to work that morning.

2. You are already late and just remembered that your car is low on fuel, thus you had to wait in line at the gas station near your house while swearing loudly (with the windows up of course!) at the bloke in front of you to quickly fill his tank.

3. Two out of three traffic lights is out of order therefore everyone had to be a dare-devil and 'merempit' while crossing the 4-junction on route to work and pray that no one will crash their vehicle against yours.

4. You switched on your computer and the system prompts you and said that they are experiencing a problem with the network connection so for most of the day, you will be isolated from the outside world.

5. The reports you naively volunteered to get it done during the weekend was a HUGE disappointment to your boss. While he did not scream or make any public spectacle about it, he did however gave you a piece (no, make it pieces!)of his mind, so much so you that you just felt like jumping out of his office window in an attempt to save of little dignity is left still - but stopped short of doing so because you realised that the jump will not kill you but instead most probably supply you with only a broken rib or two but most of all, a heavily bruised ego!

6. The bank called and gave you a nice lecture on the importance of prompt payment when in actual you are only short of RM 1.41 for your monthly credit card payment !

7. Lunch was a blaaaahhhhh!!! You ordered mee goreng basah letak daging (fried noodle with sauce & meat) but what you got instead was just "basah" only. The noodle tasted more like damp threads while the daging (meat) .....well, where the bloody hell are they???!!!

8. Your boss is obviously still upset with you and looked like a character from "Hellboy" minus the broken horns, red skin and tail.

9. Your boss caught you messaging your friend telling her about him.

10. When submitting the amended report as instructed by your boss, you happen to see your semi-annual performance and assessment form on his desk and saw the comment box under the 'achievements- up- to- date' column - blank.

By 5:20 p.m. I was seriously contemplating on whether to make that jump over boss's window or just hand in my resignation letter. I mean, why bother staying on if your boss does not find you competent or worthy enough for the job?

I went to the ladies first before making the move home. Boss was in his office, getting ready to go back. By the time I got back to my desk to take my bag and keys, I saw the reports I've submitted earlier on my table with a note attached to it.

Wel, well, well.....not bad, ehhh? Not bad afterall :) .